I knew it was only a matter of time before I had to come clean. Today’s the day. Not that anything significant happened really.
I’ve been keeping this secret for quite some time now. It’s easy to keep a secret of this magnitude. I don’t leave my house. I work from home on my computer so I don’t have to look at anyone or talk to anyone. Easy to pretend.
My secret is one I believe many of you share. I also believe many of you are in denial just as I’ve been for nearly 2 years now. Three years ago I got real serious about my life and my health after suffering a 3rd heart attack. I got into great shape and stepped out into a new world.
Two years ago, I fell off the wagon and have gone down hill since. So, today I’m sharing my secret. (Sure hope my husband isn’t reading this.) Why am I sharing so publicly? I believe we can’t change what we don’t acknowledge and we need accountability. At least I do. I’m hoping to encourage some of you to step out of your closet as well and join me.
I stepped on the scale today for the first time in over a year. There were lots of tears involved as I saw 193.8 flashing. Yes..nearly 200 lbs when just 3 years ago, I weighed 145.
I have 10 weeks until I see my husband again and I really want him to see a different person. He deserves better. My kids deserve better. I deserve better. I am taking pictures though I won’t be sharing them until MUCH later. Probably not until I can stomach looking at them myself.
So, anyone going to join me in confession here? I’ll be checking back in each week to share my progress.
Thanks for allowing me to share this shameful part of my life and for being the audience you’ve always been.